I really want to pray.

I Really Want to Pray by Ahmed Khairy Al-Omari

"I no longer feel anything in my prayer. It has become mere movements I perform. No pleasure, no devotion. Nothing. I don't remember what I recited, nor what the Imam recited. I have lost the warmth of faith, and my heart has become like December, cold, desolate, and gloomy." And sometimes... "I am no longer as regular in my prayers as I used to be. I delay them past their time, and sometimes I skip them. I know I am committing something dangerous, but my will does not obey my knowledge. I find myself bound by dozens of small details that delay me or even prevent me." Until we reach... "I no longer find meaning in my prayers. I have lost the spirit and meaning. I do not want to deceive myself... I have stopped praying." We hear these sentences in different forms, sometimes with this clarity and directness, or in other forms that are close or distant. People close to you might say them, and you might sometimes suffer from some of this, and no one is safe from it... We are all exposed to it... This book is an attempt to search for the reasons for what many people experience and suffer from... And after reaching the reasons, there is an attempt to get rid of them... to save what can be saved...

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